An unnamed man has got the internet talking after penning a brutally honest blog post about his young son.
In the post, titled ‘Why don’t I like my son?’ the father confesses that while his son is a “terrific kid”, he has no interest in him- and depsite not having seen the little boy in months due to the pandemic, he hasn’t missed him at all.
The man claimed he had to write the post as he needed to get these feelings off his chest.
He wrote: “I don’t know why I don’t like him; he’s not a bad kid, he’s actually a terrific kid, he’s smart, well-spoken, kind, rarely misbehaves.
“I have no interest in him; I see him every weekend, and honestly, I really couldn’t care less. I only do it because I feel obligated to do so, this was made especially apparent when the UK went into lockdown, and I couldn’t leave my house.
“I didn’t see him for nearly six months, and I did not care in the slightest.”
He went on to say how his ex-partner had been sending him photos and videos of the child during the time apart, but he didn’t even bother to look at 99 percent of them.
“Don’t get me wrong, when I see him I take care of him, he’s well looked after, all his needs are met, I take him to the park and stuff and do things with him, he’s really quite a happy young lad, but again, I do these things out of pure obligation, I don’t want to do them.
“I don’t enjoy spending time with him.”
The man went on to say that there are two reasons why he hasn’t totally abandoned his son yet – the first is that his dad left him and he doesn’t want his child to grow up without a dad and the second is fearing his family would turn on him for it.
He added: “I really don’t want to be one of those deadbeat fathers, but at the same time, I can’t help the way I feel towards him.
“Since day one, it’s been like this; ever since he was born, I never got that whole overwhelming, unconditional love that everyone talks about. He was just another person to me.
“Each year I keep making excuses as to why I feel like this, trying to justify it by a lack of communication, or he’s too young for us to really do anything together. Each year I have to move those goalposts further until now I’m at a point where I don’t think I’ll ever like him.. and truly, I don’t know why.
“I want to love my son; I want to have that relationship that I never had with my dad.. but at the same time, I feel like I’m forcing something that isn’t there.”
People in the comments were left feeling heartbroken by this confession – both for the boy and his dad.
Many suggested the man seek therapy and talk through his own issues with his father.
One person said: “Wow. This is horrific. I mean I guess you deserve a small scrap of credit for not just abandoning him. But man, your poor son.”
Another replied: “It’s telling that you say you were abandoned by your father. I’d suggest a good therapist would help you explore how that has impacted you as a father.”
A third suggested the man didn’t dislike his son, but instead disliked being a parent.
Someone else added: “Clearly you do care, or you wouldn’t have written this article looking for help. I can offer little advice other than talking to a professional on what has to be unresolved feelings with your own abandonment.”
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